{ Sunday, August 09, 2009 } 8:45 PM

Happy 44th National Day!

Wow. Singapore's 44 years old. I wasn't really excited about this year's celebration. Or rather, I wasn't as interested in National Day celebrations in these past few years. To me, it really wasn't anything much. I know all performers would be upset if I said the performances weren't exciting, but I do feel this way. I remember sitting in front of the TV every National Day when I was young. As a kid. As a teenager. When I went into junior college, I stopped. I moved away from the TV more and more.

Man, how can I bear to say all this after seeing how serious a kindergarten girl was singing the National Anthem on TV? I felt like her when I was performing for my kindergarten graduation night too. I put in my best for the dance, and totally had no idea what adults were thinking. In fact, I didn't really care. I just wanted to put up a performance.

Anyway, I didn't expect much from this year's performance. Fireworks weren't that all exciting, there weren't any other colours except for yellow (my dad insisted they were gold)... If you have seen fireworks in other countries... Blue, red, green... I would have been fascinated! In a way, I felt lucky I didn't go to watch fireworks with Seoh Thin when she asked. And I remember the colorful transformations performers made when seen from the top. How I missed all that! And this year's Sang Nila Utama (sorry for being disrespectful if you feel that way) didn't look perfect enough! It's like, any NUS Rag committee could have done a better job.

And because I went to the toilet, I totally missed out on singing the old National Day songs! I was so disappointed. I am so gonna watch the re-play on Sunday, just the last 30 minutes and sing my heart out!

But while I was having dinner with my family, I almost cried when I saw Kelvin Tan on stage. I saw how happy and proud he looked. He couldn't have imagined that one day, he would be standing on the stage to perform for National Day, right? I almost cried when I sang those songs. If only they didn't change the lyrics, (like, taking only one line from each song, such that it was like no song at all, I couldn't predict which line would come next) I would have cried! It's only on National Day do I realise that I actually love Singapore. And forgive Singapore for all the hardships I went through (in school, in life, etc) in the past 364 days. Really!

Oh well. The end of National Day means school's starting soon. I don't want to start school! Not when I know I am going to face heaps of stuff again...