{ Saturday, July 23, 2005 } 11:07 PM

Sad and Vulgar Day

Today is 23rd July, 2005. Woodgrove Secondary School's Appreciation Day. I am the Valedictorian, hence my presence is necessary.

Of course, I needed to be at the place at 8 am for rehearsal. I was supposed to meet Puay Boon at 7.45 so that we could be on time. However, I made the effort to be on time, but she was late. By 5 minutes. She didn't even call to tell me. It's like, so unfair to me. She's only 2nd in position, and she makes me wait. Nevermind, I am in a good mood, so forget it.

Then she tells me that Kian Soon wanted to meet us at Cheers at 750. Ok, fine, let's wait. We are all classmates, remember? But Kian Soon didn't turn up on time.

We then saw Cheong Long. He was about to cross the road when I called out to him. He saw and joined us. Then he told us that Kian Soon wanted to meet him at the playground of his block at an earlier time than ours. Ok, he's late.

Then Jesslyn called. She was waiting for Kian Soon at the Green Corner of WGS. Ok, he called up 3 groups of different people and wanted to meet us at different times. But did he keep to his promise? No. Bull him.

Jesslyn commented that Kian Soon was dua pai, meaning, thinkinf that he is great and that he can do whatever he wishes. She said, "Does he think he is the first in position instead?" Ok, I know Jesslyn is just kidding. However, it made me realise that nobody gives a damn shit about me, the real, actual, first in position, the VALEDICTORIAN!!! WTF.

Then we saw Meiting and Weijie. They were waiting for Kian Soon also. Puay Boon suggested that Kian Soon might have thought of meeting people on the way to school together. Ok, so I don't know Kian Soon well enough. Then Weijie started talking to Kian Soon, Meiting started talking to Cheong Long. So I was the EXTRA. WTH. I don't feel comfortable.

What's more, although today's our glory day (mine especially), however, I think that we all need to be on time. This is to ensure that everything goes smoothly for the school, which is very busy. Look, I am considerate and punctual, but nobody gives a damn hell. I don't like such attitudes. It just isn't what the award recipients and the VALEDICTORIAN is supposed to do, and which, I do not have.

Ok, so my day started off bad. I hate it. I hate my ex-classmates.

Then Miss Chia wasn't very happy that we were late. Of course, who would? Not me either. So we were rushed off to do rehearsals twice. I don't mind it - I just love being on stage and bowing and receiving awards. It's my life, do you get it?

Then they realised that because I would have to go up on stage twice, and after the first time, to get the top pupil award for year 2004, and by the time I get back in line to get the Top Pupil for O Levels, I would have to run, and that is not nice, according to Ms Chong. I agree too. Hence Miss Chia suggested that the 7 distinctions recipients get the award last, so that I have enough time to walk back into the queue. I felt so happy and important. Because they had to make accommodations for me. Which showed that I am important.

Then Mr Lee thought that I needed more rehearsals on my speech on stage, using the microphone. I quite enjoyed it, though. Because it's once-in-a-lifetime thing, to be the valedictorian of your secondary school. I am, you see. I just love being in the limelight.

Then, the whole thing really started. The distinguished guests arrived, and soon I was queueing up to get my 80 bucks. Not bad huh, get up on stage twice, and letting people recognise you (because I was the only one who wore a blazer and a tie, some more, I am so visible). I guess Dr. Maliki is kind of tired of seeing me up on stage twice. Haha. I love it though. I am so famous!!!! How I wish I can proudly say that today's event was made just for me. Because I told Mrs Song that I wanted to be like Eunice, stand up on the stage and hold the mike and deliver my speech.

I did it.

Ok, it was soon my turn to give the VALEDICTORIAN speech. The picture on the power point slides, which was supposed to show my latest picture, isn't very nice. I don;t mind that now, because I was to give my speech.

I stood up on stage and calmed myself. All was well and smooth sailing. I liked it. Nothing has been so perfect before. Wahahaha. I am me.

Then, a small blunder came when my eyes skipped a line and I realised that I had already spoken half of that line. Hence I paused and tried to form a complete sentence. The overall effect wasn't very good, but at least I made it. When I sms-ed Mr Lee later on to thank him for his efforts in guiding me, he replied that he meant to look for me after the event and tell me how well I did! And that I am a fast learner! Woo Hoo! I am sooooooooo proud of MYSELF.

Then they wanted me to stay for a photo taking session. For the class of 4E1. Ok, I told myself. However, the backstabber came along and stood with my class. WTF. She doesn't belong to MY class, ok? I don't even like the idea that she came to the ceremony. F her. It's my day, anyway. So I guess I can forgive her after all. But not on other days, unless I am being treated as important as today.

Then the saddest and more regretful thing that happened was that after the photo taking session, there wasn't any of my business left, so I left the venue quietly. Like shrinking back into the silence.

I am not exaggerating. But I really felt that way. I feel so insignificant and alone all of a sudden. I feel like, I am nothing at all, that I have no friends at all, and I started wondering what kind of a life I had when I was in secondary school.

I was so tired after school that after my lunch and bath, I fell asleep. Not because the ceremony was tedious or anything, (I actually enjoyed it!!! Yay!!!! VALEDICTORIAN!!!!) I love being in the limelight, remember? But more of, it's the pity that no one celebrates with me, and that I saw someone I don't like.

Sad.