{ Wednesday, November 30, 2005 } 11:41 PM

I'm not getting married

Lol. Strange post, eh?

I've never been in a relationship before, so what I'm writing here may just seem to be wrong, but I've just decided that I might just stay single all my life.

It's like, recently, I've been reading some blogs and that it seems as if people who are attached usually spend long periods of time on their partners.

It's like, you spend money on calling each other up, spend time talking sweet-nothings and spend SMS-es just to find out what's up with your partner. And it's like, these bills are kinda high.

And then, you spend a lot of time together. Like, you go on dates... What can you do? Watch movies? Ok, you gotta spend 7 bucks. Eat? You gotta spend about 5 bucks. Even window-shopping needs you to pay your bus fare. Putting money aside, how long do you spend to watch a movie? Eat lunches? Walk around some shopping centre?

And the greatest headache comes when it comes to spending money on gifts. How often should you spend on your other half? What do you get for him/her? What should be the budget? Can you afford it? What does he/she lack?

Dating. Where to go? What's the programme? How long?

Arranging time. In the morning, you go out with your family, afternoon friends, night, your partner. What about studies? What about jobs? What about CIP? What about... ... ?

Are we working yet? Which should be your priority? Studies? Work? Family? Mum? Dad? Siblings? Partner? Friends? Hobbies? Blogging? Watch TV?

It just seems as if I'll surely just place relationships as my last priority.

I'm having study groups, but, I can't meet them everyday like what we had hoped. That's because there are always things that I need to do at home. Like, house chores? Because the new year is coming. Shopping with my mum... Because of the annual dinner and dance of my dad's company. Coaching my sisters... Buying my sister's new school year's stuff.

What else? My letters... to my friends, just to keep in touch. And to Mr. Tan, for some Physics question that my friend doesn't get. And to the science HOD, to appeal for Bio S Papers. Study for my S Papers Selection Test.

And... To blog, to eat, to sleep, to play computer games... etc etc etc etc.

My mum has been complaining that ever since the holidays started, I've been going out with my friends very often. And it's like, I haven't gone out for my meeting with Christiana and the Talking Club. And with Mary, Grace et. al.

What about my studies? I can never give up my work, my career just to go out with my partner (if I have one). Career and work just mean a lot to me. And I still have to spend time with my family. How can I ever have enough time?

And after getting married, you have to tend to kids and the new family and the existing one. No, I'll never make it.

And I don't like it when things cannot suit my time. Or if the partner sticks to me too much, or whatever. And which guy would just leave his girlfriend alone?

Nah, it's too complicated. I like single.

Sure? Maybe. Erm... I think so. Ya.