{ Friday, February 10, 2006 } 6:06 PM

Oh man...

Oh man, what's wrong with blogger nowadays? I don't seem to be able to change my fonts, nor do I can put colour on my fonts.

Anyway, I am so PMS-ed today during maths lecture. I didn't mean it. It was just that S12 shares half a row of LT seats with another class. Although S12 has another full row, but since I like sitting at the back, I have to sit in the half row. During the last 10 minutes of lecture, the last 2 rows (including my half row) were called to stand up because that other class was talking damn loudly and interrupting the lesson.

So I stood la. With Grace and Sourisha. The thing is, I can't argue back because I was sitting so far back. I can't possibly shout to the lecturer across the lecture theatre. So I stood. Grace was damn pissed off. I wanted to laugh. This is just so ridiculous. But then, I realised that it's really unfair to make me stand. So I pulled a long face too.

Then the lecturer was suddenly kind enough to let us go back to sitting position after 5 minutes. So I sat. Then Sourisha and Aisha starting talking so loud that when I was only 2 and 3 seats away from them, I still could hear. Now, Aisha isn't to blame, because she and Mary were away from the LT when we had to stand.

But do you how embarrassing it is for the people in front to look back at our row when they talk so damn loud? Mary was complaining, "Can't they just keep quiet?"

So I got so fed up with the fact that they couldn't stop talking, nor to even bother whispering, especially when Sourisha knew why we had to stand, (I don't want the same thing to happen again) so I snapped at Sourisha (and Aisha too, but my words weren't directed at her), "Shut up! Do you want me to slap you?"

Ok, I'm sorry that Aisha thought I snapped at her for talking. I'm sorry that I didn't apologise to her. But I'm not one who likes to say sorry. No way man. When it's not my fault, I won't say so. But this time round I just forgot to say sorry to Aisha. Especially when she just made a really really nice friendship band for me. How can I show my appreciation to her in this way?

Anyway, I don't know what washed over me to snap at them. At Sourisha. I told myself that I have to keep cool when dealing with Sourisha. but then... I'm kinda losing it.

I'm really, really, sorry, Aisha. How can I let you know?