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Personality
Puts in my best for everything
Serious
Hobbies
Watch TV
Slack
Sleep
Loves
Dramas and variety shows esp. Korean ones
Korea
Lee Seung Gi
Dong Bang Shin Ki esp. Changmin and Yunho
Enjoys
Music
Learning Korean
Reading
Lame jokes
Helping others
Volunteering
Comedies
Likes
Sincere people
Peace
Balance
Indoors
Being in the limelight :P
Dislikes
Back-stabbers
Hypocrites
Cowards
Nonsense
Illogical People
Window Shopping
...Experience Reality... updated on 6th August 2009. ♥
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{ Monday, December 26, 2011 } 8:55 PM
DBSK - Winter Rose Lyrics
Winter Rose is a very beautiful song; beautiful vocals, beautiful lyrics, beautiful melody. What more can you ask for? Oh, beautiful idols too. =P So here I am, to share the lyrics with you guys:
Romaji
Fuyuno seizano youni gairojuno akari Sorawo oou beruno yukino otogasuru Hanareteita jikanmo daite dakishimete Want kiss sotto My love motto Fukaku tsutaetai bokuha
Kimiga ireba soredeii Sousa close to heart, close to my love Tatta hitotsu shikanai aiga kokoni arukara Kimino tameni irebaii Itsumo close to heart, close to your love Tokimekiwo kasaneau kokorono nakani winter rose
Kinya ginno mall ni afureru hitonami Chiisana hakowo daita kimiga kaketekuru Sono isshunni munega shimetsukerarete Want kiss zutto Your love kitto Kotaewo mitsuketa bokuha
Kimiga ireba soredeii Sousa close to heart, close to my love Futari dakewo futariha shinjite irareru hazu Kimino tameni irebaii Itsumo close to heart, close to your love Samishisamo wakariau kokorono nakani winter rose
Imamadeno donna omoide nimo Tada kono ichinichiwo yurushite no more tears no more lies Konyaha shiawasega mukuwareru tameno yorusa Tsuyoku futariha musubareteru tsuyoku
Kimiga ireba soredeii Sousa close to heart, close to my love Tatta hitotsu shikanai aiga kokoni arukara Kimino tameni irebaii Itsumo close to heart, close to your love Tokimekiwo kasaneau kokorono nakani winter rose
Translation
The winter stars, the illuminations on the roadside trees The veil covering skies, the sound of the falling snow Hug, hugging even the times we were apart I want to kiss you softly, my love, more and more I want to convey my deep feelings to you
My only hope is that, you be at my side Yes, close to heart, close to my love The one and only love is here in my hands I will be here only for you, always Close to heart, close to your love Our love blends together, in our hearts, winter rose
The crowds overflowing in the golden and silver malls You are running to me with a small box in your hand Watching you at that moment, my heart leaps I want to kiss you forever, your love, surely I’ve finally found my answer
My only hope is that, you be at my side Yes, close to heart, close to my love We should be able to believe in our love I will be here only for you, always Close to heart, close to your love We can even share our loneliness, in our hearts, winter rose
For each memory we hold up to this moment Please forgive this day, no more tears, no more lies Tonight shall be the time our happiness would be rewarded We are strongly tied together, so strongly
My only hope is that, you be at my side Yes, close to heart, close to my love The one and only love is here in my hands I will be here only for you, always Close to heart, close to your love Our love blends together, in our hearts, winter rose
Source: sainokuni@vimeo & smiley@OneTVXQ.com Translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com Special thanks: (To all my friends on twitter) Credits: OneTVXQ.com {One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ!}
...Experience Reality...
{ Monday, December 19, 2011 } 1:48 AM
What Am I Doing?!
I'm supposed to be asleep at this hour, but I haven't done anything! PW is gonna scold me again!
Anyway, my love for K Pop hasn't decreased a single bit, but because of my busy schedule, I haven't listened to as many new songs as I would have as compared to the past. And I definitely would have blogged more! OMG I can't believe this is my first post in SIX months.
As a baby step to updating my blog, I will add 3 new songs to my playlist. Yes, 3 of my favourite songs at the moment, by my favourite artists - Lee Seung Gi and Dong Bang Shin Ki (HoMin and JYJ). Beautiful songs. Enough said at the moment.
...Experience Reality...
{ Wednesday, June 08, 2011 } 3:05 AM
Baek Ji Young - Average
One of my favourite female singers, Baek Ji Young, has released a new album! I didn't really spend time listening to all the songs in her album, but there's this song that I really liked - Average.
As usual, Baek Ji Young's vocals are full of emotion and depth, but I especially like this song because it's soothing to the ears and its lyrics are simple yet meaningful. I've always liked the lyrics of Baek Ji Young's title tracks and this time round, "Average" is special because it conveys a special concept different from the mainstream ballads. So "Average" is definitely NOT average!
"Average" is about a woman who yearns for an average life and love, which the current guy who broke her heart can't give to her and she's trying to run away from everything that is not average. Also, someone on YouTube commented that the desire for an average life and love is because if it's average, it's not fantastic and hence, not heartbreaking either. Wow. I wish I can have such deep interpretation as this YouTube user.
Anyway, the first song playing from my player will be Average by Baek Ji Young. Lyrics are posted below (although I can't really understand the last 2 paragraphs translated. Maybe it's because it's midnight now. =X) I especially love the line "You're the worst guy I've ever met." Credits of the lyrics go to LoveKPopSubs3 @ YouTube.
Always meeting average guys Always being loved averagely The same average house, the same average children Only feeling average pain Only feeling average joy I’m happy sometimes, I’m unhappy sometimes I only want to live an average life
How is it, that out of everybody I met the bad, bad you Not like the others, I wasn’t even averagely loved I thought you’d be there for me sometimes And that I wouldn’t be alone My tears don’t stop falling when you’re not around Why am I distressed like this after he left? You’re worse than just an average person
What’s difficult in having an average love? In living and loving an average woman? And you even force me further away from you The special value of a person like you Is that I’ll never want someone like you
How, out of everyone else You’re the worst guy I’ve ever met Not like the others, I wasn’t even averagely loved I thought you’d be there for me sometimes And that I wouldn’t be alone My tears don’t stop falling when you’re not around Why am I distressed like this after he left? You’re worse than just an average person
This will be like an average pain Others will get hurt just like me Do you want me to believe you’re special? Hurt like this, how can I be average?
If I’m really average enough, I’m only asking if I’m average like everyone else says They say I’m average enough for you to love me What’s so difficult? You always tear apart my heart Why am I distressed like this after he left? You’re worse than just an average person
...Experience Reality...
{ Friday, May 27, 2011 } 12:26 AM
Student Submission Wave
The cute thing about IVLE is that when a lecturer or a student uploads a file, the "What's New" tab will show you was what uploaded and at what time.
Then I realised, whenever it's the deadline for project submission onto IVLE, the same notification will appear on the ENTIRE window:
I'm one of them actually. =X
...Experience Reality...
{ Sunday, April 17, 2011 } 1:01 AM
How They Get You To Spend More
I'm about to go to New Zealand in around 2 weeks' time for my graduation trip!!! But before that, there's still exams to prepare for... I'm sure my friends would already have finished half of studying, but I have yet to even start... Gosh. So many distractors!
Anyway, meanwhile, I still have to prepare for my NZ trip, so today I spent the whole afternoon outside buying necessities (which James says there is no need for me to bring so many things, and how he keeps emphasizing on travel light. I want to, but I can't go with a little thing not prepared. I want to be able to pre-empt every imaginable situation. I've actually got wilder plans like, prepare an emergency escape backpack like every Japanese does, which contains chemical warmers, dried food and drinks, torchlight, etc in case of emergency, so I can hold out for a period of time in case something happens to Christchurch again. OMG. Touchwood. Choy!) instead of studying. I bought a new watch (I haven't got one for use now), long pants and a new pair of shoes (in case my shoes spoil, which they often do, even in school). I've still got stuff not bought yet!
I kept all the NETS receipt so I could keep track of how I spent my money. OMG. Horrendously, I've spent $4K in 2 months! I'm so broke! I can't pamper myself anymore! T.T I never imagined that a lot of expenses have to go into preparing for grad trip.
In any case, I went to The Body Shop to buy some body moisturiser in case the weather in NZ is so dry that my skin cracks. Then I would not be able to enjoy my holiday anymore. I wanted the strawberry puree that they have, but being in a dispenser that you can't keep after opening, it seemed better to buy wide-mouthed containers with screw on caps. The salesperson was a nice auntie; she suggested that I buy body butter 'cos of the dry wind and that I wouldn't feel sticky 'cos it's dry there. I believed her and she opened every single tester container to let me smell the unique fragrance of each flavor. There's the floral fragrance type, then fruits type (there's one named cocoa I think. It really smelled like chocholate! It would be fun to test out the flavor on oneself, but I don't want my friends to throw me weird glances every night in the hotel room). I settled for the newest fragrance, which was Dreams Unlimited. It really smells very nice, and of course, is more expensive than the other ranges. There's even a perfume under the Dreams Unlimited series, and I am thinking of buying it one day. For work. Heh.
Oh my I've sidetracked too much. Anyway, The Body Shop was having a promotion whereby you buy 2 get 1 free. I decided to buy lip balm 'cos I don't want cracked lips... Then the lady was like, do you want to get a third item? I was thinking, why not seize the opportunity? So against my mother's insistence, I bought a bottle of face moisturiser too. I then realised that I didn't ask how much the body butter cost! It was $34.90, much higher than my budget, but I still bought it because I really liked the fragrance.
When it was time to pay, the bill came up to $68.40 and I had a shock. I kept forgetting that the face moisturiser cost $29.90, and kept thinking that it was $19.90. Seriously, for that really small bottle of moisturiser, it's really not quite worth it, but I have to buy it because I don't want my face to peel and my photos to turn out ugly. Upon paying, I qualified to become a member (yes, ever since last December, I've become a member of various store chains because of the amount of money I spent in those shops) once again. Oh well. My mum couldn't believe it.
Anyway, because of the promotion, I saved $19.90 (membership fee waived and lip balm free). if I wasn't greedy enough to make use of the promotion, I would have saved $29.90 (the money spent on face moisturiser). Conclusion? How shops get you to spend more if by having promotions, to drive you to buy more than necessary. If you're not clear-headed about what you want, you can get lost amongst the sale prices. Another way shops get you to spend more is to tell you that if you spend a bit more than what you already want to buy, you are entitled to a free membership which you can use to get a discount off your current purchase. And yes, that was how I fell into the trap of my other 3 membership cards. One last way to get you to spend more: you are entitled to free membership next year, if within this membership year, you spend a certain amount. Oh well. At least, it's confirmed that I have successfully renewed my Bossini membership in less than 2 months.
Christy!!!! No wonder you are broke. =(
...Experience Reality...
{ Saturday, March 19, 2011 } 6:04 PM
Beautiful In White - Shane Filan
My cousin got married a few months ago, but I only found out recently that she had a video of the photos taken only! I fell in love with the background song immediately. So here's the lyrics to the song:
Shane Filan – Beautiful In White
I’m not sure if you know this
But when we first met I’ve got so nervous I couldn’t speak In that very moment I found one and My life have found this missing piece
So as long as I live I’ll love you Will heaven hold you You look so beautiful in white And from now till my very last breathe This day I’ll cherish You look so beautiful in white Tonight
What we have is timeless My love is endless And we’ll be screaming Say to the world You’re my every reason You’re all that I believe in With all my heart I mean every words
So as long as I live I’ll love you Will heaven hold you You look so beautiful in white And from now till my very last breathe This day I’ll cherish You look so beautiful in white Tonight You look so beautiful in white Na na na na So beautiful in white Tonight
And if our daughter is what our future holds I hope she has your eyes Finds love like you and I did Yeah You’ll wish falls in love will let her go I’ll walk her down the aisle She look so beautiful in white
You look so beautiful in white
So as long as I live I’ll love you will heaven hold you You look so beautiful in white And from now to my very last breathe This day I’ll cherish You look so beautiful in white Tonight You look so beautiful in white Tonight
...Experience Reality...
{ Monday, February 21, 2011 } 7:35 PM
My First Try at Ddeok Mandu Guk (Without the Mandu)
My mum went to Fairprice Xtra with my dad and bought some frozen Korean rice cakes without my knowing. Then, she started nagging my to try cooking it. You know, I'd never cook during semester time unless I'm tired of studying (and trying to escape from reality) or I'm really really free.
So today, since it's mid-sem break, I had the urge to try cooking Ddeok Mandu Guk.
Ddeok Mandu Guk, when translated into English, means "Rice Cake and Dumpling Soup". Mandu is dumpling, and since my mum has already prepared dinner, I'm gonna leave out the Mandu so we won't have too much food for dinner. On Lunar New Year's Day, (the FIRST day), Koreans have Ddeok Mandu Guk in the morning for some auspicious meaning. I didn't research much into it, but from what I heard, it is a clear or white-coloured soup with a special kind of Ddeok (rice cake) that is round [not the kind of spicy rice cake we see on dramas] and eating it means having money ('cos coins are round) and being white, it represents purity. Eating this dish also means wishing that as one gains a year in age, one becomes more mature. Isn't the one year older concept similar to us eating those "tang yuans" on Winter Solstice? I've attached some pictures of Ddeok Mandu Guk below:
So when I finished cooking my own version, I was so proud of it... I even thought it tasted awesome! =P How can anyone be as thick-skinned as I am? I always think that food cooked by myself tastes good. >.<
...Experience Reality...
{ Sunday, February 13, 2011 } 11:42 PM
Jiayou!
I have not blogged for a LONG time.
But to think of it, it's not THAT long, since I'm still into my DBSK's songs. Heh.
Anyway, the upcoming CA is bound to kill me, and I'm sorta prepared to fail. Oh well. If only I have like 500GB of memory and 4GB RAM in my head, with file transfer rate of 10MB/second. Then I would have no problems for this CA. And perhaps the rest of my life. Haha.
My cousin Kin is flying back to Taiwan soon!!!! I wish I could spend more time with him, but it seems impossible with the tight schedule that I have now. And my favorite little cousin Fook is gonna come too!!!! Tomorrow I'm supposed to buy a birthday cake and celebrate Kin's birthday.. In advance. In any case, it's a good excuse to have a cake. My mum will cook a feast ('cos my uncle and aunt and grandma will be coming too) and on Tuesday my family will bring Kin out for dinner. Hopefully we can get something for Kin too.
Last week, I handed up my FYP Draft a little later than the stipulated deadline... Luckily my ultra-nice supervisor didn't reprimand me for that!!! =D When I sent him an e-mail with tremendous fear and prepared for the worst, explaining to him that I was late and sorry and all, his reply "no worries" calmed me down instantly. But then at 1 a.m., he sent me another e-mail saying that he couldn't find my file. Hmm. Don't tell me he works at NUS till 1 a.m.?! I quickly sent him a reply at 2.30 a.m. that I placed it at the desk outside his office... And the next day, he e-mailed me saying that he had finished marking my draft and wanted to meet me. OMG. He's amazing. My friends were saying how alike I was to me supervisor - we both work late into the night. Haha.
Tomorrow is Valentine's Day... So Happy Valentine's Day to all!!!! =D
A pity I have no latest love song to share for this occasion!
...Experience Reality...
{ Sunday, January 23, 2011 } 6:52 PM
Busy Busy Busy! (I Love DBSK)
Because I procrastinate a lot, I have tons of stuff not done yet.
Because I'm so into K-pop and my favourite Dong Bang Shin Ki, I'm procrastinating.
I just added 2 new songs into my playlist! The first song you're listening to now is DBSK (Yunho and Changmin now)'s "WHY (Keep Your Head Down)". It's a very "noisy" song to some people perhaps, but I love it. 'Cos it's by my bias Changmin and Yunho. And if you watch their live performance, OMG, it's so fantastic that it captivates my attention completely even though I can re-watch the performances like a dozen times. For each same performance. And that's probably where I used all my time on...
I like the upbeat feel to "Why (Keep Your Head Down)" and gosh, it's so hard to learn the dance! Dong Bang Shin Ki is the best band out there. Actually, I was a bit worried about how Yunho and Changmin can sing together... But they have not let fans down. =D And now I kinda like Yunho's voice when he sings. Haha. Because it's extraordinary! Although it's a result of his damaged vocal cords when he was young... In any case, it has a distinctive feel to it.
The second song I've added is "How Can I (Story That I Don't Want To Believe)". I don't know what's wrong with the Korean music industry now, it seems like almost every singer/band like to name their songs with some words, then add on to it with brackets. In any case, the true meaning of this second song is Story That I Don't Want To Believe. This song is so beautiful that it can make you cry if you listen with your heart. It's a superb song, and it showcases the talents of Changmin and Yunho. To me, it sounds like the whole of DBSK is singing together. And then I start to imagine how heavenly it would sound like if all 5 members were to sing this song together.
Some fans have been saying how this song reflects the feelings of Changmin and Yunho for Junsu, Yoochun and Jaejoong. Now that the 5 of them are not together yet... Especially now that newspapers have been spreading more disharmony between the 5 of them. I was reading Lian He Wan Bao last night and the report on DBSK made me so furious! It seems like the reporter is an anti-fan of DBSK. Seriously, there is a better way to report on them...
I believe that the 5 of them will reunite soon. Always keep the faith!
And I should keep faith in myself too. That means, start work soon!
...Experience Reality...
{ Tuesday, October 19, 2010 } 11:48 PM
Hectic Week
This week is hectic. And next week too. Till the end of the semester, every week is gonna be the same.
I just e-mailed my FYP supervisor my third draft of my proposal which I did during my break, so I ended up not studying. Then I had some questions so I emailed him those questions too. I kinda expected him to read through my 3rd draft, give me comments, then I finalise my proposal by tomorrow. However, I don't think he intends to do that. Haha. So I guess I do my proposal tomorrow and then send it again to him. I can't really expect him to make time for my FYP at my own convenience... I should have done it earlier and sent it to him.
Anyway, I had 9 questions so at the end of them all, I said, "Sorry for the long questions! Can I send my proposal to you tomorrow after you've read through this draft? Thank you!" to end the e-mail properly. Guess what he replied?
"Yes - thanks. Sorry for the short reply, in a rush"
Haha! Isn't it cute? I apologised for asking long questions but he replied with short answers. But actually my questions only warranted short answers... =/
Gotta start studying soon!
...Experience Reality...
{ Tuesday, October 12, 2010 } 1:18 AM
My FYP So Far
Today I shall blog a little.
I finally got to see my FYP supervisor after 1 week of not seeing him. It’s really weird, ‘cos when I don’t see him, I feel all confused about my FYP, not knowing what to do. But when he’s around, I get a little intimidated. Like, what if he asks me questions that I don’t know how to answer? And I haven’t been progressing on my FYP. However, I get doubts cleared.
Anyway, people at NCC walk really fast into the office. I sit at the computer just next to the door, so when they enter the office and walk past me quickly, I feel super cold. When it’s already cold enough.>.<>
I’ve been working hard at collecting data when I haven’t been able to finish even 20% of the data given to me. This is due to multiple reasons, such as me having to tutor my tutee for her final exams and me having to swim damn hard on my own just to make clear what is going on, only to find out that what I think I learnt from swimming on my own is wrong!
Anyway, I’ve tried to stay at NCC for as I can, but there’s a limit to how much time I can devote to my FYP. For example, my mum expects me to be back home by 7 pm so the whole family can have lunch together. There’s still CAs and assignments and group discussions and P1… How much time does one have?
So AC was worried about my P1 ‘cos I haven’t finished screening through my patients. So AC said, you should come down to NCC more to work on it. Then I told him, “I’ve been coming down here on Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays…” And he didn’t say anything more. I think he’s satisfied with my answer and how much time I’ve spent. Oh well.
Actually, till now, I don’t really know what I am doing, what I am supposed to do or how I am going to do my FYP. It’s like, I appear to know what I am doing, but then if you ask me deeper, I seriously don’t know. Sigh.
I’ve spent the whole of today at NCC again. From 9 am till 5.30 pm. I think I’m working there part-time. I’ve been screening patients so hardworking-ly and yet my progress is so slow. And I had such a bad headache at the end of the day that I simply knocked off at 5.30 pm sharp. And my head still hurts now. =(
...Experience Reality...
{ Wednesday, October 06, 2010 } 12:59 AM
Lee Seung Gi chosen as the male singer who would best handle postpartum care
A set of poll results showed that singer/actor Lee Seung Gi was recently chosen as‘the male singer who would best help with postpartum care’, which is a period shortly after childbirth.
Online music site Bugs Music held the poll for 6 days, with 685 (45%) of the 1552 voters choosing Lee Seung Gi ranking him first place. Second place went to 2PM’s Nichkhun, receiving 365 votes (25%), displaying the vast gap between the first and second place winners.
Many netizens expressed, “Seeing Lee Seung Gi’s generally calm image, I’d pick him as my first pick”, “Is there anyone else who is softer and calmer than Lee Seung Gi himself?”, “Lee Seung Gi is someone who would even have morning sickness in place of the wife”, “Maybe it’s because he played a father of a baby in a drama before, but I’m already used to that image.”
Meanwhile, other singers placed in the top 5 were: B2ST’s leader Yoon Doojoon with 245 votes (16%),Sung Shi Kyung with 116 votes (8%), and 2AM’s Im Seulong with 78 votes (6%).
Source: AsiaE
Photo: Bugs Music
I'm simply overjoyed for my Seung Gi. =D And I do think he would do a good post-partum job too. Haha.
...Experience Reality...
{ Tuesday, September 07, 2010 } 10:59 PM
As Life Goes On...
Many things happened. Let me see what I can recall.
Last Thursday, there was a talk by the Perm Sec of Health. Seriously, I wanted to pay attention to the current issues concerning health care so I would be updated when I graduate. And perhaps go into Pharmaceutical Society of Singapore and do something there. To my disappointment, I think the Perm Sec had too much time allocated to her, so something very simple has to be explained in multiple sentences such that I lost track while trying to follow the truckloads of words. Initially, I was fully concentrating on her; halfway through I didn't bother to anymore. In any case, people around me weren't paying attention anyway.
I only vaguely remember the contents of 1 out of 2 videos. That video was about how people can get diagnosed with a chronic disease such as diabetes and then how she would be referred to her preferred GP for follow up, and referred to another place for annual checkups and referred to... some other places. It was confusing me. I didn't think it was a good idea. I mean, yeah, you provide convenience to the patient by letting her choose where she wants to receive treatment, but then you waste time on administrative matters too. Like booking appointments, etc.
And another issue: GPs may have to get a specialist in Family Medicine if they wanna be GPs after graduation from medical school. That means, people who want to be GPs because it's the easy way out (ok, maybe people who think like me), they don't have an easy way out anymore because you still have to be accredited as a specialist. If I were intending to be a GP (regardless of whether it's the easy way out or simply my interest), I would cringe. On the other hand, I am kinda happy they did this because there's no point making pharmacist renew their licences every 2 years and other fellow healthcare professionals don't have to. Hmm. Treat everyone fair.
Now let me go on to FYP. I have to do a lot of things. But I haven't started. I printed out some articles I found and I printed 2 copies. -_-" So there goes my $5. Wasted. Anyway, I'm very happy that I don't have to go down to NCC tomorrow 'cos I'm very tired already. Anyway, I lied to my FYP supervisor that I was halfway done with the task he gave me when actually I haven't started. Oh well.
My tutee is giving me problems. Again and again and again and again. There are 4 major problems. First, she dislikes coming for tuition, so she'll keep postponing tuition sessions and we end up making no progress. Second, her track record isn't going as well as it should be. Third, she hates Science and doesn't do Science when I ask/tell her to. Fourth, I can't finish teaching her all the necessary stuff. Even if I manage to, I wonder what's the percentage retained.
School is giving me a lot of burden too. I haven't started on my elective project, and there are CAs and assignments. I think studying would be more effective for me if the department made school start at 10 am. Ending at 6 pm simply drains me of my energy and I do nothing on weekday nights. Like how I feel right now.
Today, I totally gave up and fell asleep in Dr Grant Sklar's lecture. I didn't want to, but I was so tired, I just dozed off in seconds. I was sitting in the front of the lecture too! I am very sure Dr Grant Sklar saw me. Oh well. Now I have another thing to do: listen to his lecture again. And oh shit! He was showing a video on x-rays but I was sleeping through it. Now I won't know how to read x-rays. =(
And I wanna thank James for trying so hard and patiently to explain to me Factorial Designs when he could have better spent the time mugging for the CAs. I took a super long time to come to terms to what he said and perhaps understand most of what he was trying to do. And Yee Wen too! She's been a great help.
I met my junior because she wanted some of my old notes. I met her a second time when I was buying KOI bubble tea with Debra. She was like, "Are they selling it to raise funds for some voluntary work?" I replied, "Erm, I don't know, but I don't care either." LOL! Dear junior ah, this is me, your senior, Christy, who tries to make her world as simple as possible.
And Seoh Thin found my FYP supervisor on Facebook and saw him this evening. In "tight shirt and jeans" and looking like "eye candy liao". Haha. I do have to say that my FYP supervisor does dress well, and oh my goodness, his eyes are beautiful. Eye lashes and eye balls included. If only I had those eyes. Haha. And so recently when I'm taking the MRT back home, I would look at the eyes of guys (old and young alike) and I find that most males have thick eyebrows and long eyelashes. So not fair! =P
For now, one thing that can keep me happy would be to search for nice music and listen to them. And sharing them is my hobby. Haha. But there aren't many good songs recently, so I've resorted to digging out quality songs from the past year (2009) which I have missed out and listening to them instead. So I've put in new songs for my blog! If you like those songs, you can check out their names below:
In order of playlist arrangement,
1) Beautiful Life by V.O.S.
2) Over Time by Baek Ji Young
3) What Should We Finish by Soyeon (of the group, T-ara)
4) Love is Bitter, Pain Is Calling by Seo In Young
5) Love Story by Jewelry
6) Lonely Night by December
I love "Beautiful Life". I used to encourage myself by saying "Life is beautiful" when I was in JC. Now, I think I have to change my self encouragement line to "What Should I Finish?"...
...Experience Reality...
{ Monday, August 30, 2010 } 6:30 PM
What Do You Want From Me?
My FYP supervisor is really pushing me to my max limits. I'm so darned running out of time with so many things to do and he keeps giving me things to do. =(
I had to force myself to sit down for 5 hours today to complete all my CITI online tests. And now I have to rush out my FYP report by Tuesday night. =( And I am lucky I did my statistics assignment early and kinda finished it already. Or I'll probably just bang my head against the wall - Die faster that way.
Doraemon, can you please reverse time? Can't you see that since semester started, I've cut down time wastage by almost 50% as compared to the previous semesters? Can you see the effort I'm putting in? Just give me more time and I'll finish all my tasks. Really.
...Experience Reality...
{ } 12:56 AM
Examples of Absence of Ethics in Past Researches
I'm still doing my ethics course. Anyway, I read some examples of violation of ethics and found them very interesting and so, I'm gonna share them!
I guess I have to give proper credits because it's taken wholesale. I personally am shocked by the study on Syphilis. And the study by Milgram was what I learnt in Psychology many semesters ago...
Credits:
Elizabeth Bankert, MA Dartmouth College, Hanover, NH
Jeffrey M. Cohen, PhD, CIP HRP Associates, Inc., New York NY
Jeffrey A. Cooper, MD., MMM Huron Consulting Group, LLC, Chicago, IL
Barbara Davis Goldman, PhD University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill, NC
Lorna Hicks, MS, CIP Duke University, Durham, NC
The Public Health Service Syphilis Study (1932-1972)
One of the seminal events in the development of the current regulatory environment was the Public Health Service (PHS) Syphilis Study (1932 - 1972), frequently referred to as the "Tuskeegee Syphilis Study" [see "Bad Blood: The Tuskegee Syphilis Experiment", Revised Edition by James H. Jones] . Initiated and funded by the PHS, this study was designed as a natural study of the course of syphilis in African-Americans. At the time the study began there was no known safe and effective treatment. Hundreds of men who did not know they had syphilis and hundreds of men without syphilis (serving as controls) were enrolled into the study. The men were recruited without their fully informed consent. They were deliberately misinformed about the need for some of the procedures. For example, spinal taps were described as necessary and special "free treatment" for "bad" blood.
More importantly, even after penicillin was found to be a safe and effective treatment for syphilis in the 1940s, the men with syphilis were denied antibiotics. In addition, the researchers continued to protect the status of the study as a "natural history." To prevent the subjects from being treated by the military or by local physicians, the investigators arranged with the local draft board to prevent the men from being drafted, arranged with local physicians to withhold treatment, and told the men that if they volunteered for the military, they would no longer receive financial compensation for taking part in the study. The study continued to track these men sporadically until 1972 when the first public accounts of the study appeared in the national press. Not providing penicillin once it was deemed safe and effective may have been responsible for 28 deaths, 100 cases of disability, and 19 cases of congenital syphilis. [Levine]
Ethical problems: lack of informed consent, deception, withholding information, withholding available treatment, putting men and their families at risk, exploitation of a vulnerable group of subjects who would not benefit from participation.
More Recent Events
Death of a Normal Volunteer
On March 31, 1996, a 19-year-old Asian -American student at the University of Rochester responded to an advertisement for study subjects to undergo bronchoscopy for the harvest of alveolar macrophages. The bronchoscopy was difficult and required numerous doses of topical lidocaine. The investigators repeatedly asked the subject if she wanted to continue and the subject nodded her head "yes." The study was completed, but the subject returned to the hospital in cardiac arrest from an overdose of lidocaine and died April 2, 1996. An investigation into this death revealed that the protocol did not specify the number of lidocaine doses, that the doses were not documented, that the subject was not observed after the bronchoscopy, and that the concentrations of lidocaine were increased without IRB approval.
Ethical problems:Exploitation of a vulnerable population (student volunteers), inadequate informed consent
Death on Gene Transfer Trial
In the fall of 1999, 18-year-old Jesse Gelsinger died as a result of his participation in a gene transfer trial. Jesse had a rare metabolic disorder that was being controlled by medication and a strict diet. Shortly after the gene transfer attempt Jesse experienced multiple organ failure and subsequently died. This case catapulted gene transfer research into the national news. Serious concerns related to conflict of interest, data safety monitoring, and informed consent made the Gelsinger case a contemporary illustration of continued doubts about the ethical integrity of research with human subjects.
Ethical problems:Institutional and researcher conflict of interest, inadequate informed consent
Wichita Jury Case (1953)
In this study researchers tape-recorded jurors' private deliberations in six courtroom trials to measure the influence that attorney comments have on subsequent jury decision making. The judge and attorneys knew the research was being conducted, but the jurors did not, so as not to bias their behavior. The tapes were played at a law conference and the study was reported in a local newspaper. The resulting concern that the possibility of future taping could have a repressive effect on future juror deliberations resulted in a 1956 federal law banning all recording of jury proceedings.
Ethical problems: Compromising the integrity of important social institutions, lack of informed consent, invasion of privacy.
Milgram's "Obedience to Authority Study" (1963)
The purpose of this study was to learn more about how humans respond when given instructions from people in positions of authority. The researchers informed study volunteers that the purpose of the research was to study learning and memory. Each subject was told to teach a "student" and to punish the students' errors by administering increasing levels of electric shock. The "students" were confederates of the researcher and were never actually harmed. The "students" pretended to be poor learners. They mimicked pain and even unconsciousness as the subjects increased the levels of electric shock. Sixty-three percent of the subjects administered what they thought were lethal shocks; some did so even after the "student" claimed to have heart disease. Some of the subjects, after being "debriefed" from the study, experienced serious emotional crises.
In his study “The Nazi Seizure of Power; the Experience of a Single German Town, 1922-1945,”,first published in 1965, William Sheridan Allen interviewed residents of a town in Germany about their lives during Hitler's rise to power. He made a commitment of confidentiality with regard to the names of his informants and of the town and used pseudonyms for the town and individuals when writing a book based on the interviews. After the book was subsequently translated into German, based on the information provided and additional investigative journalism, a German magazine was able to determine the real name of the town and the identities of many of Allen's narrators and published the information in an article.
Ethical Problems: Failure to maintain adequate confidentiality to protect against deductive disclosure of identity by others with additional information.
Humphreys' "Tea Room Trade" (1970)
In this study the researcher observed homosexual practices in public restrooms. The researcher went undercover as a homosexual and gained the confidence of the men by acting as a "look out." The researcher identified 100 active subjects by tracing their car license numbers. A year after he completed the observational portion of his study, the researcher disguised his appearance and in the communities where he knew the subjects lived interviewed some of the "tearoom regulars" in their own homes. He used a social health survey collecting data about their sexual orientation and marital status. Interviews were sometimes conducted in the presence of wives and children. At no time did he tell them anything about the relationship of the interview to the prior observational work.
Though the publication of the book based on the dissertation may have been helpful in dispelling some stereotypes, the report had sufficient detail that the identities of some of the participants were obvious to them and their families.
Ethical problems: Invasion of privacy, use of a vulnerable population, lack of informed consent, failure to protect against deductive disclosure of identity. [ Warwick]
Zimbardo "Simulated Prison" (1973)
This landmark psychological study of the human response to captivity and, in particular, prison life, involved assigning roles to normal male student volunteers to create groups of "prisoners" and "guards." The research became so intense, as physical and psychological abuse of "prisoners" by "guards" escalated, that several of the subjects experienced distress less than 36 hours after the study began. Dr. Philip Zimbardo, the researcher, did not stop the experiment/simulation until six days had passed. See Dr. Zimbardo's web site for more details on this study.
Ethical problems: Harm to subjects, lack of neutrality of researcher.
Restaurant Letter Study (2001)
It is important to note that not all the events that raise concerns about research ethics in both biomedical and social and behavioral research occurred before the 1974 congressional hearings. In 2001, a faculty member from the business school of a major university designed a study to see how restaurants would respond to complaints from putative customers. As part of the project, the researcher sent letters to restaurants falsely claiming that he and/or his wife had suffered food poisoning that ruined their anniversary celebration. The letters disclaimed any intention of contacting regulatory agencies and stated that the only intent was to convey to the owner what had occurred "in anticipation that you will respond accordingly." Restaurant owners were understandably upset and some employees lost their jobs before it was revealed that the letter was a hoax. The researcher later admitted the falsehood in a letter of apology to each restaurant. The study had not been submitted to an IRB for review. An investigation by the Federal Office for Human Research Protections (OHRP) followed. In addition, the restaurants filed a lawsuit against the university.
Ethical problems: Deception, lack of informed consent, infliction of emotional distress.
...Experience Reality...
{ } 12:07 AM
Yeah, Right
I just started doing my online tests on learning ethics for student researchers. And I saw this line:
Students are vulnerable in an academic environment. They must be able to participate in research with voluntariness. They must not be coerced to participate in a research project that is not to their liking.
Oh well. If only it was really true. I wouldn't have have to do FYP and I'd be happy.
...Experience Reality...
{ Tuesday, August 24, 2010 } 8:21 PM
Week 3 of School
Ah. It's only the 3rd week and I'm already freaking tired. I already have lots of homework and assignment not done and there's still FYP!!!
I look back the past 3 years of university life and I saw what an easy life I had. I never studied, I rarely did my tutorial and seldom had stress.
Now, I do my tutorial with a pinch of zest and feel like learning everything! But given the amount of work to be done and my energy draining away, I can't do anything!
This semester, I am taking Physics as an elective. I happily did all my tutorial questions thinking that I could get all correct and almost enthusiastically attended tutorial today.
Guess what? I had quite a few questions wrong and I already have the impression that I am not gonna score for this elective already. =( And the tutor was horrible. He rushes through the tutorial and only explains once. And I don't even understand what he's saying! Luckily I had some basic Physics background, or else I'll never understand a single thing.
I thought I found back some interest in Physics, thinking that I could fall in love with it. But in the end, I hate it more. It should not be like that...
...Experience Reality...
{ Friday, August 06, 2010 } 5:42 PM
Old Receipts
Today's my pay day!!! Haha. I finally am able to collect money from my tutee. =X
Not that I teach her for money (since I'm already charging such a low rate), but it's always nice to see money. Heh heh.
Anyway, I took out the $50 which I put into my wallet in order to watch a movie with Xiao Ting yesterday. I managed not to touch that money. Wee! So I also decided to clear out some receipts which have been accumulating inside my wallet.
I saw a very faded receipt which I couldn't see anything on it at all, except for the logo, Marche. Hmm. That was last year...? When we went there to celebrate Chia Yee's birthday I think. And an old receipt of me going to Sakae Sushi with Hui Min at Northpoint last year. 28th of July 2009. Wow. Really old receipt.
And I can't find a NTUC Fairprice receipt which I bought my external harddisk. I am supposed to save it in case I have to send it for repairs within 5 years! Shucks.
...Experience Reality...
{ Tuesday, July 13, 2010 } 3:26 AM
Sorry, Lee Min Ho
Hmm. I think I'll take back my views on Lee Min Ho's latest drama, "Personal Taste".
Seriously, it's not as bad as I made it sounded to be on my previous post. Just that the preceding drama was soooooooooo good, you can't shine much more than it.
Ah. The more I try to explain, the worse it becomes.
Anyway, I'm starting to get caught up with the plot, so I'm beginning to like the drama. =D And I just finished episode 5 just now!
My mum was asking, "How long is each episode of "Personal Taste"?" Me: 1 hour, just like "You're Beautiful".
My Mum: Then how come this drama seems to be so long?
Me: Maybe it's a bit more slow-paced and it's not as funny as You're Beautiful.
Oh well. But I still like Lee Min Ho. How he looks like when he's stressed out. Ok, I sound like a weird stalker. Haha. And him in general too. That was why, one day, while walking towards the MRT station, I took a LG mobile phone promotion leaflet from the girl giving it out when initially I didn't plan to... Because I saw Lee Min Ho on the leaflet. Heh heh.
Christy, you're hopeless.
...Experience Reality...
{ Monday, July 12, 2010 } 2:18 AM
What Do You Do When You're Bored?
I totally have nothing to do at home since my attachment ended. Well, not exactly. I do have stuff to do, like compiling the answers to the assignments I did during my attachment, but I just can't get down to do it. Come on, it's THE holidays! The last of my 3-month holidays before I graduate and start slogging for life.
So, I started to catch up with notable dramas. I watched a Korean drama called "You're Beautiful" starring Park Shin Hye, Jang Geun Suk, Lee Hong Ki (of FT Island) and Jung Yong Hwa (of C.N. Blue). Oh my God. It's a REALLY good drama, such that my mum got caught up with it in the first episode itself. When I finished it and moved on to Lee Min Ho's "Personal Taste" which everyone around me told me to watch, the latter appeared average. I was totally engrossed into "You're Beautiful" and oh man, it's a must watch for all drama freaks like me. Oh. I'm not a drama freak anymore. =(
Anyway, Park Shin Hye's acting was fresh, Lee Hong Ki was good (he's so cute!) and Jang Geun Suk was totally amazing. I love him! (Oops.) Or, maybe I like his role in the drama. He brought the character to life. But one thing for sure, I fell in love with his voice. Haha. And a lot of fans out there love his voice too. Haha. Anyway, I so regret not watching "You're Beautiful" last year, such that when he came to Singapore, I didn't really care. Ah, such immense regret! He's one actor I'm gonna look out for. Maybe I should watch "Beethoven's Virus" just for him. But after I finish Lee Min Ho's drama first. But I don't exactly wanna finish it. As in, no urge to. The only thing that keeps me going is because I've started on it already.
Next, I started to watch the World Cup. Yeah, I actually kinda got hit by the soccer wave. But I only watched, like 2 or 3 matches. I was amazed at Germany's performance, and I was really sad when they didn't manage to get into the finals. Anyway, they've gotten 3rd place! So that's a consolation for me.
Ok, here's the latest, most dumb thing I did because I was bored. Super Junior has 13 members, right? All along, I could only recognise 3 members. I then decided that it was too unacceptable for me to only know 3 out of 13 members when I'm so into Korean pop. So I looked up the pictures and names of the remaining members and viola! Excluding Ki Bum who's mysteriously disappeared (Ok, he didn't really disappear from Earth, but I just couldn't come to a conclusion after searching Wikipedia. It was just said that he didn't participate in the 4th album. So I don't really care about Ki Bum now...), Kang In who's just entered the army (but hey I can recognise him) and Han Geng (who withdrew from Super Junior with reasons similar to DBSK? Or was it that he was too tired? Whatever.), I can proudly say that I can recognise all of the remaining members! Oh my. It took me 2 nights to remember them. And at times, I mix up Sung Min with Ye Sung.
What other dumb stuff will I do with the remaining days? Oh well. Someone do something with me! I'm really bored.... *cries*
...Experience Reality...
{ Wednesday, July 07, 2010 } 1:56 AM
Feeling Unwell
I fell sick. I was very tired on Sunday afternoon, so I took a nap before starting tuition. I woke up with a sore throat, but since sore throat happens to me quite often, I just took some Danzen tablets and gave a very slack tuition. My tutee was lucky that she didn't have to hear me nag for a session. I also sneezed a lot of times at night.
Then on Monday morning... I woke up nauseous, cold with a more severe sore throat and ultra-sleepiness. My sister actually vomited again at 3 a.m., so after I cleared up her mess, I had to bring her to the doctor in the morning. So I went along to see a doctor myself.
We waited at the clinic for an hour before it was our turn to see the doctor. And she said my sister had food poisoning and that I perhaps had it too. I then gently reminded the doctor that I had flu symptoms, while my sister doesn't. So in the end, she simply diagnosed me with flu. And she told me, "I think I won't have to give you any medicine for your nausea then." I rolled my eyes but I didn't protest.
Anyway, my sister, despite feeling nauseous, was hungry, so I brought her to Mega Food Mall next to the clinic and bought her Yong Tau Foo. I didn't feel like eating and upon reaching home, my sister was happily eating while I went off to sleep without lunch or breakfast.
I woke up in the afternoon and felt a little hungry, so I ate 2 slices of plain white bread and 2 pieces of peanut crackers. Then I went back to sleep again. -_-"
I woke up for dinner, and I ate very little (like, 10% of my normal appetite?) at my mum's insistence. Whoa. I felt so healthy that day. I mean, at least I kind of went on a diet. =P
At 10 p.m., I had a craving for some soft drink, so I sipped half a can of coke. Oh my God. I was energized almost immediately. Sweet soft drinks do help, huh. I guess I was low on sugar. I remember feeling dizzy one day during term time. Pepsi made me more alert. Haha. So I started watching "You're Beautiful" with my mum. LOL.
...Experience Reality...
{ Sunday, July 04, 2010 } 10:22 PM
The New Public Transport Fare Structure
Ok, the title of this blog post is very misleading... Haha. I'm not gonna critique the new Distance Fares structure, but am just gonna talk about how it would affect me when I go to school in the coming academic year.
Actually, I really love the old fare structure of giving me rebates when I make transfers... I transfer from bus to MRT to bus just to go to NUS, so I really save a lot on the old fare structure. I didn't even have to buy concession anymore! Then came the new fare structure, and I heard about how 1 out of 3 people would experience an increase in public transport fares, I kinda got worried. Good thing was that there's the Distance Fares Calculator by LTA, I calculated that it would cost me around $1.79 for a single trip to school. So there's still no need for me to buy concession. I was happy for that. I wonder if I save more on this new fare structure, but I can't remember how much my old fare was. I guess the difference wouldn't be significant.
So I'm actually happy!
Then I saw this feature called Journey Planner I think. So I decided to find out if the route which I've been using for the past 3 years to go to NUS is really the best route. Seems like it is so! =D I can't be more happier.
And it's just one more year to go... Soon, the journey to school which sucks all the life out of me would be over. Ha ha ha ha ha...
...Experience Reality...
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